results out

average grade b+
phew ... i thought it wld turn out worse
but i guess this is quite bad already
seeing that b+ is like the d/e grade in uni
LOL it's akin to just scraping through -____-""
should work harder next sem
which is coming too soon

sighs

and i think i screwed up my course registration
tsk
irritating the hell outta me
shit

hmmm

i get wary when pple act differently all of a sudden
like pple who pops a facebook msg and ask to meet me ALONE
especially when we've not meet for 2143981273 yrs
...




hmm
i get really scared actually
like what can they want ???
really to rekindle our friendship ?
or some other motive ?


maybe i just have trust issues

Sesame Street: Feist sings 1,2,3,4

LOL she's laming around with them too
and i love this song, even with the change of lyrics LOL

Sesame Street: Norah Jones Sings Don't Know Y

LOL again
"Yoghurt
Yodel
Yarn
now i can't spell anything"
LOL and she looks so into it
omg she's kinda cool

next sem sucks

omg my timetable is screwed up like shit
have to go to school every fucking day
omg
shit
and all the lectures for the core mods clash with the timings for the courses that i wanna take :(
shitassamajig
this sucks

Catalina: Woman of a thousand tears

LOL love this snippet from my name is earl

I'm bored

went to watch beauty and the beast yesterday evening
first row omo neck tired out
but we got to high 5 one of the actresses
I took awhile to react to her becoz she came down frm the stage rite in front of me
•_______•"" I was like like that
then i faster react
Emma yong is so pretty :)
ahhhhhhhhhhh
I have a crush on her
:):):):):):):D
and chua enlai and Darius 'forgot his surname' was damn funny
like WTF funny
funny :):):)
and Karen tan was cool
and shermaine ang the little girl was damn cute :):):)

and now I'm bored
maybe shld go catch a movie
or go exercise
or do some reading
or go brainless
or watch tv mindlessly
or play the sims 3 until I reach 10 generations
or go orchard see the Xmas lights which are supposedly better this yr
or go to some random shopping mall and walk around aimlessly
or play psp
or play ds
or go to the library
or go bake some cake
or browse the web
or learn diving
or do household chores
or learn knitting
or learn something
or write stories
or write really long blog posts for the whole day trying to think of sone really witty things to write
or go to some nature reserve to wander abt aimlessly
or sleep or hours on end

I've lived for a fifth of a century already
all I've ever done is nothing really

what's the point of living so long when you can't really do all that you wanna do ?

I think I'm pmsing

cheerios

last paper

omg today's paper is more screwed up than anything i've ever had
it's like
smoke the whole paper
omg
omg
and i actually predicted correctly the questions that will come out -____-"""
but i was too lazy to study everything
and now i'm regreting it
omg

okay
it's over
just forget about it
i'm gonna go hibernate
and fatten myself up during the holidays
depression
and the courses for next sem is like screwed up
there is lecture on monday and friday for the core modules
so die die no long weekend -___-"
wtf
there seems to be lecture everyday
wtf
they should never have lectures on mondays...

shall go try to be happy
cheerios

My life is over

Today's paper were totally screwed up
the questions were so specific
and the 40 mark compulsory question was on a reading which I didn't read and can barely remember what is in it
AHHHHHHHHHHH

last paper on tuesday
haven't start yet
the readings are like double of all the readings of my other courses combined
don't even want to look at it
€____€

but the holidays are nearing
just a little more
ahahaha
I talk like as if I worked so hard
when I didn't even put much time in
lol
shall start studying tmr
my brain is too drained due to the need to write 5 essays on things that I'm clueless on

cheerios
btw iron chef is uber entertaining :)

I'm so dead

My mind is filled with anything but what is needed for me to write an essay tmr
Omg
and it's the die die must pass module
omg
and the elective I haven't touch yet
omg
I'm dead

It was ok

Yeah
becoz the lecturer told us which topic would come out
so it wasn't that unexpected or shocking

okay
3 more papers to go
two on Thursday then the last paper next Tuesday
omo haven't started on my elective yet
and the passport module also only half way through
and those are coming on thurs ):

I also went to get my essays today
I keep getting B
which though is not very good, I'm still glad
esp since I spent way too little time on them
and I always hate to read my essays becoz it's like a pile of crap
crap crap and crapemole
so I'm glad
but I must put in more effort next sem
IF I make it through

don't feel like studying
craving a mega mcspicy
shall eat it for lunch tmr
macs is only worth it during the 1-3 lunch promo
haha
shall start studying elective tonight

cheerios
can't wait for holidays (:

I don't want tonight to end

Becoz I dunno what i'll write in the papers tmr
I've totally lost any sense of how to write an essay
and I didn't do any memorizing
but I don't feel like starting now
so
I dunno

hurrah

High on caffeine

The problem with drinking coffee is that even though it keeps me awake,my heart is beating so fast that it is hard to concentrate on anything and I become restless
I should not drink coffee to keep me awake
tea is a much better choice

shall go back to attempting to study

cheerios :)

slacking

looking at all the stuff that i'm supposed to study
i realise that i'm super far behind and there's no way in hell i'm gonna finish it
maybe if i had started at the beginning of this week i would have finished the stuff before the exams
but i chose to slack
the choices i make constantly bug me
when i'm watching tv i'm asking myself
would you even remember this show a day later ???
would it affect you so much to not watch the show ???
but i continue watching
hmmm
i seem to be subconsciously walking towards hell
i dunno why

oh yeah
and i just realised
i bought 4 albums this week
so it's like $70 spent on stuff

i should stop spending so much
and start studying now

waking up late

of course i woke up late again
i didn't even hear the alarm
tsk
and i've not started studying today
hmmm
have to finish reading globalization today

i think i'm taking this a little too easily
hope i dun regret it later on
but the notes do not actually seem to have much of a link to the questions that they might ask
or maybe it's just that i dunno how to link history to soci
I spent the whole of yesterday listening to 2 online lectures which i should have done weeks ago
and trying in vain to read the impt stuff, but i ended up watching tv after dinner ...

oh yeah
oprah is going to stop her talkshow in 2011 (to prepare for 2012 ??? LOL)
even though i dun like her show as much as ellen's (which i think has been going on a decline)
Oprah is still a big show, its been there forever
sighs
all things must come to an end
soon it'll be the end of the reign of our generation and on to the next generation (what letter is it now already ??? gen y ???? or am i already in an outdated generation already, i'm not really sure, technology blurs things)
and i'd be as outdated as my parents are now

oh wells, shall go watch the video regarding work and trade now
shall try to be more productive today
it's friday already
3 more days after today till the first paper
sian zi bua

OH YAR JUST to add in
pls go vote for the
People's choice award
vote for jason mraz in favourite male artist and fav music collaboration
and Joseph Gordon-Levitt (500 days of summer) in fav breakout movie actor
and 500 days of summer for fav independent movie

AHAHAHA i'm seriously too distracted

ok

i've started studying
HAHAHA
luckily the one that has the most readings is the last one
sighs
i take super long to read something
i need to read the same part multiple times to get what it's trying to say
and i'm watching tv now
i keep waanting to wake up at 6am to study, but i keep waking up at 11pm instead

will start again soon
i've been eating mcdonalds everyday
omg AHAHAHA like as if i'm not fat enough
i've to grow fatter

shall exercise during the one month break
:)
ok i should study so that time passes faster and the holidays would come faster

oh yar and i need to go collect my assignments
O_____O
3 hours travel to collect two papers which i totally forgot what i wrote about because i didn't dare to read it
sighs

hope i get through
4 days till the first exam
12 days till the last paper

cheers

OMG

I've not started studying yet shit
I keep saying that I'm gonna start but nooooo
I still have not
I think I'm the only person in uni tt hasn't started
the laziest uni student...
Hmmm that'll be a good book lol

whatevers nust start today

:( sadness

Aish I feel damn lazy to study now
eveything is distracting me
my ds, the com, the radio, the tv, the bed, the sofa, my mind ...

Sianded why must there be exams ?

omg

i woke up at 3pm today
then after that i ate
and watched tv
and now i'm blogging

OMG I WASTED THE WHOLE DAY !!!!!

omg there's soo much to study
shall start tmr

-___-"""

pushing on

okay i'm at 1,137 words now
need 3 more pages of words
hmm
maybe i'll use a bigger font
LOL
aish
hope it's not too crappy.

damnit

ok damn cui i only squeezed out 200 words
-______-"
and it's due tommorrow
and the next day have presentation, so have to do pp slides
and then on friday there's another essay due
AAAHHHHH
all becoz i downloaded The Sims 3


oh but it's damn nice to play LOL
haiz
hate school

ok i just wasted the whole day again

ok
i HAVE TO FINISH THE ESSAY TODAY
urghh
ok i',m not gonna sleep tonight

OK !!!

Word Count : 0/2000+

let's get working

I just fucking wasted the whole day

yes
that sums up my whole life actually
wasting time

actually wanted to go library to find books for the assignment that is due on wednesday but i didn't
wanted to start on the assignment that is due on friday but i didn't
wanted to start on the presentation that i have to do on thurday but i didn't
instead
i'm online, watching anime
why did i do that ?






I have no idea

unmotivated

to study
aish
i'm totally uninterested in everything
even in playing my psp or watching tv
sighs
utter depression

oh yeah
i realise that i actually know what dependency theory is, only that i didn't know that it is called by that name
-_________-""""

shall go back to lamenting about my life to myself

good day

exams O________________________O are coming

OHEMGEE
exams on 24, 26 nov and 1st december
AAARRRGGGHHHHHH
omo 26 got two papers
oh my god
i dun even know whether i actually have enough knowledge of the subjects to write for 2 and a half hours
T_____T
feel like running away
locking myself in a room
till the exams are over

shit
today at tutorial i realised that i was the only one that didn't have a clue what was going on
i dun even know wtf dependency theory is

dead

and i'm still procrastinating my ass off
watching shows online
i deserve to be dead

changed mind

ok doing on the increasing obesity in america
haha have not started the essay yet
assuming that i start now, and type 200 words per hour
I would finish in 11 hours
which would mean ... 10.30am the next morning
okay
i think that is a feasible goal
then after that would take a 2 hour nap
then wake up to do some fact finding to buff up the essay
and to proof read it
i didn't proof read my previous assignments so i dunno how they actually turned out
HAHAHAHAHA
ok
shall get started soon
:):):)

ok

i shall do on the aging population in japan

argh

i can't decide what to write abt for the social problems essay
shitshitshitshit
i'm so fucking screwed
i thought that i was doing environmental degradation
then i'm tempted by crime
and there's also poverty

shit
crapoloadashit
ifrigginwastedthewholeday
needtopassthisupontuesday
2000-2500stupidwordswhichican'tevengetstartedon
aish

loads to do

task list
1. Social Problem, linking to Globalization. 2000-2500 words. due next tues. not started.
2. Essay, linking observation of an event to any soci theory, for writing class, due next next friday. not started.
3. Report/scrapbook/whatevs. Teaching the prof abt an aspect of media in america, due next next wednesday. not started

Final examinations coming
shitloadofworktodo
and i'm still procrastinating

looking at the previous final exam papers
i concluded that i'm going to be screwed

urgh sick shit
how do pple actually get through ???
srsly, maybe not getting in last year was the right thing for me
i'm totally not cut out for this studying thing

interesting

An anthropological introduction to youtube
go watch it if you have 55 minutes to spare
HAHA
really interesting presentation on youtube

734 words

500 words to go
need to hand it in tmr
suckilicious
I have nothing else to crap up

ojdsfaopcjq9u3mr9umq 9weqr8q-28

it's amazing what sleeping at 3am for the past 2 day has done to me
I'M SO ALERT
BUT MY BRAIN HAS STOPPED FUNCTIONING
I CAN'T EVEN THINK PROPERLY
omg
when the tutor asked me a question i just stared blankly at her
and she said that i looked like i was thinking when i was actually sleeping with my eyes open
and i fell asleep during today's lecture
which is rare
and IT'S GREAT !!!
HAHAHAHA

i'm gonna hit the bed as soon as I get home tomorrow
have another 2 essays to write that's due in 2 weeks time
my gpa is gonna be so screwed

OMO

i think i'm just gonna cite from my textbook
seriously urgh, how hard is it to source for journals and citations
friggin shit i keep being tempted by wikipedia
ok i'm just gonna pass up a whole essay full of shit

HAHAHAHA

i'm still awake
trying to crap out an essay
274/1200
wow
and it does not even look like academic work
wtf i dunno how to make it look academic when i'm talking abt myself
social interaction shaping who i am today
tsk
shall continue crapping
considering not sleeping today
hmms
maybe at 5am
trying to reach 600/+ words today

~FIGHTING !

assignments

okay i have a 1200 word essay due this friday
craziness
have to choose 2 memories that are the most significant in shaping who i am
and have to explain the social influences
fuck i dun even know wth this is about
HAHAHAHA
fucked up

weird news

LOL
a boy was thought to be stuck in a home made balloon and flown off
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and the balloon was quite cui one -__-"
haha to see them frantically trying to get the balloon down
in the end there's no one inside the compartment
HAHAHAHA
and they found him in a cardboard box in the famly's garage attic
tsk this shows you to calm down and check the most obvious places first before panicking and supposing the worse

LOL
cool

Mika - Blame It On The Girls - Official Music Video w/ Lyrics

favourite song of the moment (:(:(:
his new album actually rocks, which is a great relief
i've gone through too many albums which where not as great as the previous one
i've typed singapore so many times for the essay that anything beginning with "si" becomes singapore
LOL
lame
500 more words to go
thanks to xiang qi who's article reminded me of what i've missed out
chiongs

Just squeezed out another 100 words
1700 more words to go
have to hand it in thursday morning
fuck
the way i'm going right now i do not think that i can go on for another 1700 words
burningthemidnightoiltonight

200th POST !!!!!

YAY

okay lame
i spent the whole day (8 fucking hrs)
and i have only vomited out 400 words
and i don't seem to be making any sense
even to myself
fuck
ihateessays
ihateihateihate

RAWR

s/u

omg okay i think i have to s/u the elective module
omo the project is so -___-"""""
it's like 6-8 pages essay / video skit / anything creative
it can be done in groups or individually
but since i don't have anyone i know in the lecture theatre
i don't have anyone
O____________O

i'm not gonna take another module that's lecture only ever again
omo it's soo much harder to know the people
at least with tutorials
though it's a pain in the ass
it's easier to get to know people

okay i'm word vomiting
shall try to start my essay now

sadness

!!!!!

i'm losing another tutor this sem omo
something about her employment contract not drawn up in time wtf
that shows how inefficient the school is
this sort of thing also can happen
i mean, it doesn't matter whether she's leaving or not wth
but that the lecturer will be taking over OMG !!!!
and i always fall asleep during his lecture no matter how hard i try
omg
omg
omg
somemore the previous tutor was damn slack with the class presentation scores !!!!
AAAAHHHHHHH
she's just damn slack overall and now it's this prof taking over
omo
and he's temperamental ones
and his accent is really ... sleep inducing
aish
depressed already

and my essay wtf
haven't start yet
wtf wtf wtf

i hate this

i just realised i've been blogging alot these few days
hmm
i think it stems from the fact that i'm trying to avoid doing any real work
also from the fact that Sharmin seems to be reading my blog
and therefore fueling my "thrill of attaining readership"
though there's like... only one... and most of the time none ???


whatevs i'm procrastinating again

i learnt something new today

i was eating sweet potato porridge just now
and i found that i really liked the sweet potato due to it's lychee taste
i told my mom about it
and she laughed and told me that it taste that way because it's spoiled
!!!!
and she said she was lucky i ate first and told her about it
i told her that it was really very nice
and she said that she'd just buy all the rotten ones for me next time

but it really tastes good
everyone should try it
it's really amazing to taste lychee with sweet potato

LOL i realise i just kinda like all food
that's why i'm so fat
i should stop eating so much

(500) days of summer

is so

aaaahhhhhhh~

i guess it's really comfortable ???
not cliche like alot of romantic comedies nowadays ????
really .....

aaahhhh~

i'd go watch it again when it comes out on the big screen
and i'd go buy the dvd when it comes out
and watch it over and over again like i did "Little Miss Sunshine"

ok i should get started on my work now
the week went by so fast
i haven't even had enough fun yet

:( sadness

omo the film is coming out on 8th Oct

Did You Know 4.0

cool

break

ok
have been bumming for 4 days straight
should probably be starting on the term papers which are due soon
but am too lazy
and i've nothing to write seriously
urgh
the thought of crapping out 2000/+ words on something i don't even understand about is not something i'm looking forward to

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

oh yeah i've been meaning to mention some things i saw in school
but i never really remember to
so shall do it now

ok
i saw someone who set her desktop background with her picture
a picture taken in a studio
-_____-"""
can't stand the narcissism
i mean, a random funny photo is fine
but a studio taken one is taking it too far
and she's not very pretty
but that's not the point
the point is that it's just too disgusting

secondly, during one of my classes i literally saw someone's butt
because her skirt was too short or something so she pulled it down
i don't really know
but when she stood up from her chair, her shirt lifted up for a while and i totally saw it
i felt sick
it was cellulite-ty
and she wasn't some hot babe or something
urghh gross

thirdly,i saw some guy digging his nose whilst infront of me in a queue
i had really wanted to smack his fucking bald head
omg
the worse thing is he went to bite his nails after that
i totally started stabbing him with a knife in my imagination

omg
some people are just so gross

oh god final destination 4 is damn gruesome
it's the most gory
with guts brains
damn graphic

feel sick

depression

today's mid term test was traumatising
i had some sorta mental block
couldn't remember anything, even though i read through my notes like 5 times
and the one that i paid extra attention i couldn't remember too
i think i've become mentally retarded or something
which totally shows that 'A' level grades are not a good indicator of one's competence in surviving uni
omo somemore it's like the most important course, and they're not offering it next sem, and if i fail i'd have to wait for the next acad yr to continue my studies
omg i can so totally see the 10% flying away
fuck
like how to answer "what does the 'definition of the situation' refer to ?"
or it's an easy question and i'm just dumb
it's not even in anything i read pls

urgh

when i passed up the paper i totally wanted to run away

ji sian one

LOL and this was the photo the lecturer pulled out
the fake smile

things got more interesting

got a new lecturer for Media in America course
all i can say is, how i wish he was with us from the beginning
the last lecturer was good, don't get me wrong
but his interest is in corporate journalism
which though interesting, can get really dry especially when we're learning about the history of newspapers
this new lecturer focuses more on new media, which was totally what i expected when i signed up for the course
and it doesn't hurt that he's younger and better looking too LOL
and maybe because he's younger, he is more laid back and enthusiastic when teaching

but the bad thing is that he totally went facebook and pulled out pictures of alot of us in the course
omg i was laughing at the other people, and hoping that my pic whon't appear, but it did appear towards the end
i was like O______O
luckily it wasn't some weird pic lol so he didn't linger long (some pple's pic were really funny)
this totally reminds me of how scary and public the internet is
everyone can see what you put online
and esp with a platform like Facebook, where pple can post random pics of you even in your most unglam moments

urgh

and i have not started studying for my mid term test omo
i feel like dying

shall burn the late night oil today

what a good day this is gonna be

not in the mood

mid term test for intro to soci is on this friday
and i have not even the slightest clue what i've learnt in school
and it's like ... 10%, which i really need so as to cover up my inadequacies in speaking out in class, which btw costs 15-fucking-percent, and which i'm pretty sure i'm not gonna get even half of it

ok i'm procrastinating now
should go back to reading all those unintelligible stuffs

good bye

oh god

i just realised in every sem there's only like 13 weeks of teaching then you're like expected to know everything there is in the subject omfg

fuck i need to be more dilligent

omg

i feel sad already, 6 weeks went by very fast, 7 weeks is gonna go by quickly too

sighs i need to go do my assignment and stop procrastinating now

sadness

Sasquatch music festival 2009 - Guy starts dance party

lol totally rad

HAHAHA

LOL saw some nice pics that i wanted to share
but blogger was a little crazy on my comp and i cldn't upload any pics
so i'm uploadin em all now

LOL
i just dug out another significant memory
clinging on to my mom during my 4th bday

oh yeah
i really want a polaroid camera
but they've stopped producing both the polaroid film and old style cam anymore
and those are what i want
*drools*

omg

okay i have 2 assignments due this week
and i've not finished them yet
okay they're really small tasks i guess which you can potentially finish within a few hours
and besides our readings seems to be small business compared to the peeps at nus
(which makes me feel like i should be visiting the library more often)
but it's like ...
significant memories in my life ????
fuck it i have no significant memories that's why i'm so boring bodohs
omg fuck so i have only stuff like "falling whilst running on flat road and spraining my leg" to type in
x____x
omg this assignment seems like it's meant to seperate the losers and the exciting peeps

sian zi bua

(Eng Sub) Prank Funny! Zombie VS Kids

LOL DAMN FUNNY
my brother loves this

okay

i've not made any friends yet ...
i think i'm getting too dependent on tpp and am not making an effort to make any new friends
but then the topics that they talk abt is really ...
and they irritate me sometimes
and somehow i dun have any desire to talk to them
so whenever there's a break i'd just hide in a secluded toilet cubicle
and read

omg i feel loser-ish

i'm an outcast

sighs



but at least the lessons have been cool
though the lectures really suck big time
i just can't seem to absorb anything

sighs
going expo now for the library book sale with my mum

shall work hard

FIGHTING !!!!!

thanks to the one up above

these few days have been rather smooth going for me
it first started 2 days ago with me picking up $2 on the floor at the mall
then the next day, my appeal for the elective module that i wanted (Media in America) went through
then today my application for the bursary is approved


i'm content :)

frustrated

omg i can't my last module
all the elective modules are like taken up
and those that aren't clashes with my other lessons
x______x

DIE

school is staring soon

just matriculated, got my timetable
it's rather okay seeing that i don't have to go to sch on mondays
but on wednesday there's only one tutorial
so i take roughly 2 hrs to get to sch and go for a 1 hr tut, then go back home :(
lol so i'm trying to get a general prescribe module that falls on wednesday
and i have a tut starting at 0830 on friday o________________________o
which means waking up at 0600 omg
somemore it's a tutorial so cannot cheat and go for another timing one
sianzers

let's work hard together :)

me

i'd just like to put this here for my personal viewing
HAHA they both look so good, jason mraz rocks and colbie caillat rocks
but they obviously couldn't meet to do the video i think LOL
i mean, caillat's portions look like something that they just had to make do and film
and mraz's portion looks so much more polished LOL
and to think that they didn't even meet to do the song too
LOL whatevers, this isn't one of my favourite song on the album, but the video is nice
"Lucky" Official Video With Colbie Caillat


cheers

bored

there's nothing interesting happening to me now
just playing maplestory / watching anime / sleeping / playing ds / watching tv interesting
basically rotting away

there seems to be many notable deaths in this 2 yr time period
the canoe coach who drowned in macritchie
the ntu student commiting suicide
that person whom i'm not familiar with's mum died
and ms g

i should make better use of my limited time on earth

~cheers~

:)

bored

talentless

okay, so i'm feeling happy now
phew i've got a chance to go uni
at least my future is more stable now

in a sense

i mean, sociology isn't exactly the most practical course you can take

but HAHAHAHA at least i'd have a degree
and won't have to, to quote my paternal grandfather's brother(dunno what that's called), sweep the floor.

yes that's how condescending my family is
even my mum's side, i can just feel my aunts ridiculing me behind my back

not that i don't understand why
their kids are like the all-subjects-get-distinctions kind
and they're most probably gonna be doctors and lawyers in the future
in fact the twin brothers from my father's side are already studying for doctorates, one in law and another in chem engineering already
you can already see their future
all blindingly bright before them

there's also a tv producer (paternal grandfather's brother's son)
used to see his name on some chnl 8 shows

and there's a L1R5 9 pointer now in vjc, a girl who's most probably gonna get 6 points this year, and not to mention my grandfather's brother is a millionaire with 2 uber huge landed properties (which i have to say he owes loads to my grandfather who had to work to support his studies and therefore wasn't able to study himself)

wow
and there's me

~cheerios~

wow

time really just disappears without one noticing

oh yeah, and i got my laptop already

and i got into ntu sociology

and i am quiting poly nxt week

and that's the end
wow
things just totally went zooming past
in fact, i dun even have time to feel anything
numbed
crap
i shld be feeling happy

~cheers~

i have not gotten my laptop yet
hurh sians
the projects are like kicking in suddenly
and omg at least 3 of them involve selling stuff online/in a bazaar
it's like 3 outta 5 major projects ... ...
i mean, okay it's business studies
but seriously, not everyone wants to start up a business
x_______x
no need to keep selling stuff right ???
and the worst thing is i never have any ideas what to sell

sucks i feel like such a burden to my group

have to buck up \(^^\)(/^^)/ <== 2 peeps cheering fyi

cheerios

headache

omg i don't understand anything the lecturers are saying
everyone around me seems to think everything's so easy
but i don't
omg
headache
i've been doing the tutorials conscientiously
but nothing goes in

urgh

and i hate projects
there's project for almost every module
omg sucks

die
faint

pimples

frm the start of this yr onwards i seem to be having this really horrible pimple prob
the worst thing is i just keep pressing them and they leave scars T_T
and omg i pop them everywhere seriously
i just can't help my self
i popped one in school recently
and omg it was those extremely bloody ones
O____O
luckily i was hiding in a secluded part of the sch so i cld faster rush to the toilet w/o anyone seeing me

all my pimples are super bloody
i have no idea why
it didn't use to be like that last time

urgh gross

this is gross too

cheerios

sch again

omg fucking retarded one of the lecturers was talking abt make up lecture for nxt friday due to it being a public holiday
and guess what he said ????





he said it's good friday on 1st May
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.
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how long has he been in s'pore ????
who fucking doesn't know that 1st May is Labour day ?????
who the hell can mix it up
who the hell can actually forget that good friday was on 10th April this year
and he even posted it up on the online bulletin
omg
damn retarded

okay i'm making a big deal outta this
my period this mth is especially testing

FREAK
and i had tutorial today
omg they are all huddled in their grps
i don't even know whether i can get a group for project work
FREAK
how to do well in poly ????
how ????
3.8 gpa leh
how ????

freak

okay

there's no sch for me on thursdays
which is quite cool
and nxt week will be even sweeter
HAHA
thurs no sch, fri labour day and sat, sun also no sch

oh yeah and abt the poa thingie
the poa module tutor actually called me and offered me a bridging course
wells he'll just be handing me the notes and allowing me access to the slides
so HAHA it's not so much as a course but a self-study thing
but it's still cool
better then nothing

and my aunt borrowed the required texts for me
coz she works as a research asst at nyp
so she can actually borrow it for more then a semester
so i dun have to buy most of the texts
only have to buy 2
lucky coz the bks are expensive mans
and i've got no income right now
sighs will go find a part time job, i need it

lectures are a chore really
the peeps just keep talking and talking and talking
i really have this strong urge to use my 0.25 tip pen to poke the people talking
just turn around and start violently poking their eyeballs and turning them into mush
srsly irritating
and the lecturers omg
and here i thought lectures at sr were just mindless copy sessions
the lectures here are just mindless staring
omg the lecturers just repeat / rephrase what's on the lecture notes
OMG i think if one wants to do well they really need to do alot of self-studying
okay maybe it's too early to say i mean it's been less then a week only

sighs

first day of school

is kinda scary
omg the lecturers kept referring to poa stuff and i'm like -_-"
what's more omg they're all yr 2 peeps and have their own cliques alr
omg what's more this week no tutorials
how to know more peeps ???

omg
ok
i think i have to be a loner here
for 2 yrs
x_____________________x

and my lappie's not here yet
will only have stock at end of mth
fujitsu omg cheep cheep one

okay shall cont printin the countless lecture and tuts
OMG AND ONE MORE THING
how the hell to do the tuts ??? omg i see the qns and i go -_-"""""""""""

hurh i hope this 2 yrs go by fast

Name: Sharlen Liew
Date: 4/11/2009
Colorgenics Number: 23501647


You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.
At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.
You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.
Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.
You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

on a side note

when i was young i used to say aloud "Crocodile !" when i say those big drains
whatever you call them the ones that has fishes in them sometimes u know (esp the one at kembangan mrt, in the mornings when there's more water you can really see many fishes, i even saw a super big fish one day when the water was rather full after a night of heavy rain)

LOL

dunno why but i just kinda remembered it and wanted to share
i just realised that i've just grown up so suddenly
frm the little girl who's always clinging to her mom and thinks there's a crocodile every pool of murky green water
to now

it's kinda sad

O_O

omg i feel like closing down my fb acc
srsly i don't even use it
and pple are actually really trying to communicate with me using it

wtf

omg last day of work end of this mth
T_T gonna miss the $9/hr pay, with $10 shift bonus
and the routine of going to work
going to ot
and being quiet with all the guys
and T_T i dunno why but i'm actually feeling sad

but if i'm to go poly (if i get in) i have to quit now
T_T

sadded

will go back there to work nxt time if i have the chance agn

omg

i'm 20

so OLD

AHHHHH

shit, i've not even achieved anything significant

tsk

i'm still dreaming of my farm in a faraway land

:)

i have

scary mood swings

seriously

it's like

whoa

even i'm a little creeped out by myself

i think i may be a little schizo

O_________________O

but of course if i really were i wldn't know

and absolutely wldn't admit it

therefore i have to say i'm pretty fine

just that my mood swings are ...

cheers :)

there, no need to be happy anymore

and i fucking didn't even realise i spelt life wrongly

fucking idiot arsehole

fuck i really don't wanna go sim

life sucks

FUCK WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I JUST RETAKE A LVLS LAST YEAR THEN I WON'T BE IN SUCH A FUCKED UP STATE WITH ALL MY FUCKING WRITING AND LANGUAGE SKILLS ALL FUCKING DOWN THE DRAIN

i know... it's ironic that i say that life's too short to be unhappy
but then how can you be happy when your life sucks worse then dying
in this fucking limbic state where nothing is certain

it's the menstrual talking
but it's all true

I <3 Pokemon

i just applied agn for ntu nus and smu

HAHA it's just gonna be a waste of the application fee
i know
but i've not paid it yet
still wondering whether i shld bother

will apply for sim too

tsk

but what i really hope is for np to accept me omg

becoz no matter what, i still got a really bad impression of sim
srsly spending so much money and getting a degree that's not that outstanding

O_O but of course if np doesn't accept me i wld have no choice

going to be my last day of work the end of march
bittersweet
i really kinda don't fit with the peeps there
but the pay is sweet and i will kinda miss going to work everyday

tsk

nothing lasts forever of course
i must move on

hmmm

i just realised something
my cousin shldn't be 25

i mean, when i was in primary 1, she was in primary 4 at the same sch
hold a min




okay i just checked her friendster profile she's 24

LOL which fits the mould of teachers marrying young

geez i can't imagine myself married in 4 years time

i don't think i wld like to have finished studying by then

hopefully can still get in uni and further my studies

studying is still the best

LOL though when you're at it it's the worst thing ever

AAHHHH

omg it's sold out T-T

jason mraz concert

omg 5th march 8pm at s'pore indoor stadium
$75-$145

i want to go

cny

i really don't know what's the big deal abt cny
my cousins and i have too much of an age gap/diff in personality
they're either too old or too young or they're guys
O-O
totally conflicting interests
what the hell am i supposed to talk to them abt ???
Mayday ?? Jason Mraz ?? Mentos sour mix ?????
omg wtf i don't really care what they're going through and they don't care abt me too

i have a 25(or therabouts) yr old female cousin getting married on 28.02.2009

must.lose.weight

freak omg i only have a mth o_O

and i must save money omg i'm depleting my resources on food omg i don't even know where all my money goes omg it just disappears omg why can't my fats disappear like that too omg why don't i have money omg i really want to go mayday's concert omg but the tics are like $178 and the cheapest (where you can only see ants) are $88 freak want to go there listen to them also no money omg i thought last time the tics are like so much cheaper like ever since the don't-know-which-diva (i think it was kylie minogue or stephanie sun or something) that started the ulta-exp tics trend omg i don't have money omg shit i feel depressed omg i might not get in np omg omg omg omg omg

then i'd be in a deep rut

cheers : happy cny peeps

i hate how brainless i am

i'm like a sheep following the crowd
omg so utterly brainless

i always get myself too affected by the things happening around me
:) smile and be happy (:

on the first day of 2009

i worked
which may be a good start for a year
since i expect myself to work very hard in order to retake my 'a' lvls and handle poly work as well

i need to make it

and i will

hopefully

surely

maybe